Poem – A Soldier’s Suffering

I wish I was home

With my wife and son

I will return to Australia

When this war is won.

 

The things I have seen

No-one should ever see

There are so many times

I have wanted to flee.

 

I am struck with fear

My mind is stuck on repeat

Memories going around and around

I feel so incomplete.

 

Guns shooting in my head

Bombs going boom!

They never go away so

I automatically assume,

 

I’m mad, i’m worthless

Who could love me like this?

It’s like I am hovering

Over a dark abyss.

 

I am now home

But the pain is still here

I wish it would just vanish,

Just disappear.

 

I am constantly transported

Away to another time.

It is almost like going

To another lifetime.

 

However, the memories are so real,

So vividly real.

Time after time,

Like on a filmreel.

 

I cannot live like this

I cannot control my voice

And now it looks like

I only have one choice…

 

Ella Bibby 2/7/2017